Dis.Couraged

I wish it were easier to tell what in the world God wanted me to do with my life.

I wish my faith were stronger.

I wish writing that didn’t make my eyes well up with tears.

I wish I had a better idea what I am working towards.

Why I’m here.

What difference, if any, I’ll make.

I hate that I so often still feel like no one to everyone.

Invisible.

Unimportant.

I hate that my husband came home and instead of giving me a hug, criticized the lunch I sent with him overnight.

Because I really needed that hug for no reason.

And I hate myself for it.

Because I know I used to be so much stronger than I am now.

Confidence stripped away by a series of unfortunate events that’s led me to question.

Everything.

And everything I thought I was, and thought I knew…

It’s all gone.

 

3 thoughts on “Dis.Couraged

  1. Trust Him. Trust that He knew what He was doing when He created you. And don’t be afraid to wait on Him. His perfect plan has been 6,000 years in the making, and running. In the meantime, read, read, read, pray, and obey to the best of your ability. Everything else will fall into place. “But seek ye first the kingdom of God, and his righteousness; and all these things shall be added unto you.” Matthew 6:33

    Sorry to be so presumptuous. I know absolutely nothing about you or your life, but this advice has never failed me, so I’d like to pass it on to you, in the hopes that you find some peace or purpose.

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